Madness

I look at this page
So empty before me.
A reflection of how I feel.
But my life is like a pond.

I see things only through
My own clouded eyes.
So I interpret them wrong.

How can I understand
How another is feeling?
When they see it differently?

A new set of eyes!
That's what I need!
But tell me, please do
Where can I get a set of these?

Madness, chaos
Everywhere I go.
It's like a trail of destruction
That I leave in other's way.

There seems to be no changing
The mundane everyday
It seems things will be the same
Now forever and a day.

I wish I could change it
Get a new pair of eyes.
But it's all set in stone now
I'm the one who cries.

If you find this to be untrue
Please just let me know
I'm crazy on the inside
Broken with nowhere to go.

The never ending heartache
Of living day by day
Has made me so unsure
Whether I want to go or stay.

If I leave the decision to someone else...
I won't have to think about it.
And someday when it rains
I'll stand outside and not get wet.